YOU MADE ME FEEL LOVED

CORNY AS IT SOUNDS PERO PARA SA'YO TO:


LATELY I'M NOT WHO I USED TO BE



SOMEONE'S COME AND TAKEN ME


WHERE I DON'T WANNA GO


IF I KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE TO DO


IN ORDER TO BE THERE FOR YOU


WHEN YOU WERE FEELING LOW






AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED


WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE


NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT


ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT






EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND


EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND


EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT


EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE


THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND


AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY


SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY





SAVE ME, I'VE FALLEN FROM MY DESTINY


YOU AND I WERE MEANT TO BE


I'VE THROWN IT ALL AWAY


NOW YOU'RE GONE


IT'S TIME FOR ME TO CARRY ON


BUT BABY I JUST CAN'T GO ON


WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE






AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED


WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE


NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT


ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT






EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND


EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND


EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT


EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE


THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND


AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY


SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY






WE CAN SURVIVE IT


ALL THE PAIN WE FEEL INSIDE


YOU RELIED ON ME AND NOW I'VE LET YOU DOWN


NOW, I PROMISE YOU FOREVER


I WILL BE THE BEST I CAN


NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT


ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT






EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND


EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND


EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT


EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE


THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND


AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY


SINCE I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY






EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND


EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND


EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT


EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE


THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND


AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY


SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

..AND YOU CAME

After a week of work, 'eto na naman ako. Writing another post for this blog.
This has nothing to do with what has happened this week. But maybe yes.
Kasi the whole week para atang wala akong rest(work and work and work lang kasi). Yet inspired in an unexpected turn of event.
It's about you. Alam mo kung sino ka. I started on a wrong approach but it turned out well. And I did not expect it. You made me feel loved. Again.
You know, I couldn't thank you that much 'cause for more than 1year that my life revolves with my friends and myself alone. And you came.
I appreciate every little thing you do. Your being thoughtful and sincere made me feel important to you. Wish I let you feel the same way too. When you read this message I hope you'll realize how happy you made me feel that finally you came. I am not certain however of what the future holds for us. All I know is that we enjoy each moment we talk. Wherever this leads us, may you treasure our secret love affair as I'll do. Years will pass by and we will meet different people. Sana di mo ako makakalimutan. I know you have dreams. Dreams that I cannot realize. And all I can do is wish that it'll come true---for you.
I will hold on to what you told me:

"Trust me. :) happy aq kasi tau :) mahal na mahal kita :)"




PS:
August 07, 2010 is the date ^^,

Haunted

Ang buhay nga talaga mapaglaro. Ang hirap tarukin.
Kung anu-ano na lamang ang naiisip ko. Kahit nasa trabaho, meron pa ring mga di inaasahan na pwedeng mangyari. One minute I'm sitting with happy thoughts, one minute I'm drowned with guilt and blames and shame I brought to myself. Masakit isipin na kahit ga'no ako kasaya, may pagkakataon na bigla ko na lang maiisip ang mga bagay-bagay na nagawa ko dati. Lalo na lahat ng kamalian ko. I pity myself. It doesn't sound right, but I feel it. Sinisisi ko sarili ko sa lahat ng kamalasan at lahat ng paghihirap na nararanasan ko ngayon.
Makikita ng tao na masaya ako. Ang di nila alam, naghihirap ang kalooban ko. Mabigat. Masakit. At ang lalim ng tama sa puso. Baon na parang pana na mahirap tanggalin pag tumama na. Mas masakit pa lalo kasi walang nakakaalam na eto 'yong nararamdaman ko lalo na 'pag nag-iisa na. Kung kelan na tumatanda ta'yo. at kung saan alam natin kung ano ang tama at mali, do'n pa tayo lalo nakakagawa ng mga maling desisyon. Madami na 'kong nagawa. Halos lahat ng mga MAJOR decisions na ginawa ko sa buhay ko ay mali.
Masakit isipin at balikan na ang dating ako, eh malabo ng bumalik pa. Complicated na masyado ang mga bagay-bagay.
Isang pangyayari lang ang sinimulan ng lahat ng mga kamalian ko. Isang pangyayari na habang buhay ay maaalala ko. Kung ano man ito..malalaman mo din.
Kahit papano nakakagaan ng pakiramdam ang pagsulat ko nito.
Salamat sa pagbasa.

tired and weak..

A week ago, I had chills. Reported to work for friday shift July 25, 2010 kahit may trangkaso. I started my shift 1AM technically July 26, 2010 na ng madaling araw. I forced myself to take calls since that was a critical working day (don't want to get focus alert for a single instance of being absent). Hinihingal habang nagtetake ng calls and finally di na kinaya ng katawan. Nangangatog na mga tuhod, ginaw ang nararamdaman, masakit ang ulo at nanghihinang katawan. I waited until my lunch break at 5:30AM(kahit umaga na LUNCH pa rin tawag don) to take a rest. Pumunta ng clinic only to see the note: NURSE IS ON BREAK. WILL BE BACK AT 5:45AM. I waited hoping to consult the nurse. Naconsume lang 'yong lunch break ko na 1hr until 6:30AM walang nurse na nagpakita sa clinic. Bumalik ako sa production floor to take calls (kahit paos na at giniginaw pa rin). Finally, sa awa ng supervisor ko pinalog-off ako at pinapunta sa clinic after calling to confirm the nurse presence. I was instructed to go to the clinic. Guess kung anong bumungad na note sa pintuan: NURSE IS CURRENTLY OUT FOR EMERGENCY. Ang kawawang ako, returned sa production floor. Lumapit sa supervisor na halatang concern. Di nga lang alam kung anong gagawin 'cause she cannot send me home without the permission from the clinic. Isinama ako ng supervisor ko para kausapin ang mga tao sa Ops( for Operations). Tinawagan ang clinic. Wala nga ang nurse. Nasa hospital. Ang sabi, babalik daw in a while and I have to wait. Ako naman eh simple lang---namumutla na. The operations people cannot decide pa din kung ano'ng dapat kung gawin. Either I go back and take calls or continue being offline (and my productivity will suffer daw). Napressure tuloy ako. In the end, I decided to rest. Bahala na bumaba 'yong productivity ko basta makapagpahinga ako. My supervisor sent me to the clinic and have me waited 'till the company nurse arrives. Dumating nga after mga 20mins na nakahiga ako sa bed. Had myself checked-up and finally nakakuha ng send home notice. 'Yon! nakauwi din sa wakas. Swerte na lang kasi rest day na so meron akong dalawang araw para makapagpahinga ng maayos. Pagdating ng bahay, pagod ang katawan. Di alam kung anong ngyayari. Blangko 'yong isipan. Walang ganang kumain (although naghahanap ng prutas). I just took medicines para gumaling. Nawala nga ang lagnat pero naiwan naman 'yong sipon. The following week na bumalik ng trabaho, andyan pa rin si sipon. Ayaw matigil. Taking calls with running nose? Kainis! Naubos ko isang bundle ng tissue paper (not kidding). After mga ilang araw, unti-unting nawala 'yong  sipon ko pero wait, there's more! Ramdam ko ang unti-unting pangangati ng lalamunan ko. And now? Eto kumakahol na'ko. Kelan pa to matatapos? Get well soon to myself. Thanks for reading this post. This is me---when sick and tired... I'm weak.

my first day

wow! good afternoon peeps! this is my first day creating a post for my blog. someone gave me an idea of creating one for myself. thank you. and so starting today, i'll be writing something that comes in my mind. salamat po kapreng bulakenyo for giving me this idea to create and meet PLU.